Welcome And The Big Question

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Welcome to Aging with Purpose and Passion, the podcast designed to inspire your greatness and thrive through life. Get ready to conquer your fears. Here's your host, psychotherapist, coach, and empowerment expert, Beverley Glazer.

Beverley Glazer 0:19

What happens when the life you made was successful, but it no longer feels true? Welcome to Aging with Purpose and Passion. I'm Beverley Glazer, a transition coach and reinvention strategist for women over 50, helping you turn a lifetime of wisdom into your most impactful next act. And you can find me and this podcast on reInventimpossible.com. These episodes share raw, real stories from women who refuse to shrink, settle, or fade away. We don't sugarcoat our challenges here. We rise from them, and you'll leave with a stronger belief in yourself and a greater clarity about what is possible for you too. Mary Madeiris is an award-winning television director, an author, and an advanced Akashic Records practitioner. She built a powerful career in network television, directing seven top-rated daytime TV dramas, including General Hospital and Another World, working for CBS, NBC, and ABC, earning three Emmy Awards and a Director's Guild of America award. But success on the outside doesn't always answer a deeper question on the inside. When Mary's career shifted, she followed a different calling into the Akashic Records, a spiritual tool for clarity, healing, and deeper self-understanding. If you've ever felt you had success, but it also feels meaningless, this conversation is for you. And stay with us until the end for takeaways and simple steps that you could do for your own life too.

Mary Madeiras: Emmy Success and Spiritual Reinvention

Beverley Glazer 2:12

So welcome, Mary. Thank you. Thank you for having me. This is exciting. Mary, you grew up a Catholic and you were in a working class family. Describe what was it like for you growing up?

Mary Madeiras 2:28

It was challenging. Um, I had three brothers and a father who who I love dearly, and and he was a raging alcoholic, and uh he was uh mensily abusive. And so there was that, it was a lot of chaos, it was a lot of and he was a racist, so he hated every culture, he hated every and I had a hard time with it. I just didn't have that in me. So um I escaped through watching old movies when I was little. So when things were really because my brothers were getting in trouble all the time, and and and bad trouble. And then one of my brothers bullied me very badly. So I would just uh retreat to my room and I would watch this was in New York and I would watch um all the old movies that were on growing up all night. Late show, late, late show, late, late, late show. They were just really sometimes till four or five in the morning. Wow. And it not surprising that I wound up going into television and storytelling in that way because I loved the stories that I was watching and they made me feel better. So um that's what it was like. So it was it was um, it just was challenging, and I always and I also remember always thinking all this stuff around me is so stupid. I remember the word stupid. Really? And why are they yeah, the hatred, the this, that, the craziness. I just remember thinking it was stupid. So um it was, I guess I'm lucky because it was swirling around me and and it wasn't it wasn't directly attacking me, I'll say, that energy, but it was oh, it was really hard. Yeah, and you didn't buy into it. No, I didn't buy into it. My brothers did, they you know, ricocheted out of that, and a lot of them had troubles, but I did not, but I also did not. What helped me was my schooling. I loved school, and I had these nuns that taught at that time, and I'm I'm one of the few that has wonderful nun stories. They were beautiful women, they weren't shoving religion down our throats. They were, they were, they just were beautiful, and I remembered feeling seen by the nuns, and I did really, really well in school. And I think that's one of the in my acknowledgments in my book, I named them the Ursuline nuns because of um how how impactful they were. I always I always felt like I was like sort of gently landing in their arms and I felt safe. Yeah, beautiful.

Beverley Glazer 5:09

. So were you spiritual? Would you say you were spiritual then?

Mary Madeiras 5:14

No, I um my my family was Catholic, so I went, I was sort of adopted into that. And so I do remember not understanding um things that were being taught, like a God that punishes, uh, has wrath, a um uh a humanity that comes in stained as sinners. We're sinners and we're here to be saved. Like that never meant made sense to me. But I didn't rebel against it because I loved being in church because I felt us. I I realized today I was feeling source. I was feeling something loving me. I remember being very little and feeling something great that was not anything I could see loving me. I felt love coming from somewhere, and it just happened to have happened for me in church. But I think I know why, because I've since discovered I

Childhood Chaos And Finding Escape

Mary Madeiras 6:10

had a past life as a cloistered nun in a good way. Yes. And so church music and choirs and uh Gregorian chant just sends me like I disappear. So um I had that, and that was my religion, which of course I just I just knew that when I grew up I was going to keep keep discovering, and I I knew that wasn't for me, but I didn't rebel, wasn't I wasn't, I didn't make a big stink about it. I just held on and left.

Beverley Glazer 6:47

Yes. And and you certainly did leave. You went to TV and storytelling there. How did you land there?

Mary Madeiras 6:58

Well, in I majored in music in college, and I was the only one in my family that went to college. And um, and so I I I remember the feeling of freedom and feeling like, wow, I can make choices. And um I always when I so I majored in music, and then I realized, as many young people do, that I love music. I studied classical guitar, I got a degree in music education, and it was not my thing. I just felt like it wasn't my thing. It wasn't uh, I didn't think it was a waste because music has informed everything in my life, in my careers. So it was a good thing. But I remembered that when I came out of college, I went in back into New York City and I was, you know, applying for jobs as we all did, and um, I was working in in sales at this company that was it, I think I always wanted to work for television and in television, but I didn't know how to do it. So I didn't, I didn't study for it, but I had an intention about it, which I think is important to say. And so I was in going in another direction in this sales company on Fifth Avenue, and they did deal with advertising for affiliated stations around the country. So it was kind of a little bit like television, but not really. And they were priming me to move up, and I just didn't want it. So a friend of mine had told me about an opening at WCBS in New York for a secretary. Back then it was called secretary, now it's assistant, and um, and I took that job, and everyone thought I was crazy because here I was going on this trajectory to be a sales person, and uh, and I went to be a secretary at a local news station, and I did, I took that job, and I'm really glad I did, and I worked my way up. I watched, learned, listened. I worked then at network, CBS News, that during the Dan Rather times. Um, and then I was uh production assistant and an assistant director, then I moved on to director. Um, and that all of those movements were not without being passed over by men over and over again. And so when I did become staff director, I was usually one of very few women, if not, I think I was the second woman ever to direct at CBS News. And so um I was a trailblazer and I just had resilience, I guess. I just stuck with it, and then I knew I wanted a different kind of storytelling, and um I wound up um moving over to soap operas, basically is what happened. And I even went back a notch, I became an assistant director on a soap called Another World, and I so I went back, but then in no time was a contract director. So, and then I went on to do six, six other soaps, so I did seven. That's where that came in. Yeah, and they were top soaps, yeah. They were they were top soaps, and that's where I got two of the Emmys. One of my Emmys is uh from working on the Olympics with NBC in Korea. Um, but then the other two are from the soaps from Another World and from General Hospital.

Beverley Glazer 10:13

So yeah. Did you ever expect that? Or were you just on this trajectory and you just loved it? You loved what you were doing. Were you aiming for Emmys?

Mary Madeiras 10:24

You know, when I was working on Another World, I do remember, well, I just knew I I knew I was good at it. I knew I had landed in something that was just awesome and I knew it, and I was really, I just was good at it. I was successful at it, and I knew that. But I do this, but but but to your question, I remembered um, you know, each year most of the soap operas would go to the Emmy Awards, whether we were nominated or not. And so I would go as part of another world, which is NBC. And um, and I remembered one year being at Rockefeller Center, and I pointed to we were sitting in the audience, and I remember the uh General Hospital group, that's soap, they were way up front near the stage, and I pointed, I was sitting next to my best friend and I pointed to them and I said, I am gonna be on that show and I'm gonna win an Emmy. I remember saying that and I remember the feeling of it, and then I forgot about it. Well, I did win an Emmy and I was directing on General Hospital, so that is where we really do have this power when we are lined up with something and we just go, I'm gonna have that. I'm just gonna have that. It's very powerful. We have that power.

Beverley Glazer 11:41

We do, yeah. It's almost like a belief, uh a knowing. It's a knowing. Yeah, not even a belief, it's just it's a knowing, yeah.

Mary Madeiras 11:50

And I remember the feeling to this day of knowing that what I was saying was to be, it will happen. Yeah, so I didn't, you know, in that career, that was success. That career, that part of my life was never meaningless. So this wasn't when I moved from there and wound up where I am now, it was never and is never related to any part of that not making any sense or not feeling right. It wasn't that at all. And, you know, since I've been working in the Akashic Records all these years, I've come to learn more about what was happening and how things are, how things unfold in our lives. We could have five careers and they can all be part of what we call our past. And we tend to learn in our world that those are then, and that was, you know, that wasn't who I am. And and the records show us, oh no, no, no, that is part of who you are. And everything that we have done always plays into what our chosen soul's journey is on the planet. It always plays into it, and the records show us when we've forgotten how things play in. I mean, I'm writing now, and my writing is so different than anything I could have written before working in the Akashic Records, and I know what to write because I understand the industry, because I worked in the industry.

Beverley Glazer 13:14

Of course, of course. And then all of a sudden your career came to an end. How did that happen?

Mary Madeiras 13:21

Yeah, well, I think what happened was um, in retrospect, I think my reason for being here, well, maybe that's not it, but I there was a my soul's journey, it was it was time for another facet of it or another part of it that would feed into it. I'll say it that way. And I wasn't aware of it because I was just rocking and rolling, going, going, going. And I'd never had any issues or problems on any of the shows I worked on. I always did my best, I'll say that. And so all of a sudden, like out of nowhere, it was out of nowhere, the executive producer on General Hospital just called me up to her office and said, I'm not renewing your contract. We would have renewals. Sure. And I was just like dumbfounded. I was just, what? And um, I can't remember to this day what the reason was. It was not an event, it was not, it was so nebulous. And I went to the actors and I asked them if there's anything I missed as a director and anything I could do better moving forward. They did not know what I was talking about, and they said, What are you joking? I'm like, No, I'm leaving. And they're like, You're you're one of the best directors we've had. And that was the top actors on that show. And so that's all I needed to hear. So, did I even know at that point there was something else calling me? No, I it because I was in my third-dimensional self going, what do I do now? Oh my God. And I think that happens to a lot of people. We just sort of the floor, we get the floor ripped out from under us, and we just don't get it in the moment. So it was a really tough time. I mean, it was it was tough. And so I have to say that while I was to rewind a little, while I was during the years working on soap operas, I was always leaning into an interest in metaphysical and in outside of our third-dimensional reality. Always. I would go to Abraham Hicks workshops. I was, you know, getting into Eckhart Tolle and listening to him. I whoever was Louise Hay, you are your you can heal your body and all of that. I was so interested in all of that. And uh UFOs, ETs, all that phenomena, always while I was working at the SOAPs. So there was already a part of me that was primed for dealing with a resource such as the Akashic Records. That is not something that we can physically see, but it exists. So when I was out, when I when the general hospital event happened, um, I still didn't understand because I had to grieve, but I still continued to go to the metaphysical bookstores and go to the workshops and stuff. And then I had a reading with a psychic that I would go to, and she saw a being over my shoulder, and she said, It's a male being, and he looks like a genie, and he's telling me that he oversees your Akashic records. And I asked her what they were, and she said, I don't know, but that's what he says he's doing. So, and that he's been with you lifetimes. So I looked them up and I remember gently feeling it was gentle, wasn't hit over the head, I wasn't grabbed. I just felt like, wow, I know this. I just feel like I know it. And I still didn't pay attention. I still tried to get back in television in various ways. I was pitching reality shows. I tried everything. And I

Becoming an Emmy-Winning Television Director

Mary Madeiras 16:48

think what that is, is that's I think in retrospect, that's our ego. That's who doesn't want to work in television and keep going to awards and you know, and get great, have a great salary. It's like exciting, right? And so I think I was a little bit trapped in that part of it that was just ooh, you know, like wow. And so so much that I wasn't listening to some other part of myself, possibly. And so when I got that reading, and then I started reading about the records, I still didn't listen. And then I was at a metaphysical bookstore in LA, and uh a book was sticking off the shelf above me, and it called my attention to it. I pulled it down, and it was how to read your Akashic records. And I thought, okay, spirit sore, somebody is speaking to me here, or I'm a part of me is speaking to me. And so that's when I began to just listen. And I think some of this, when we go through these shifts in our lives, it's about being quiet and listening. And so I did. I listened, and then I, the more I opened my own records, I began to hear blocks of thought that are not mine, profound, profound, similar to Neil Donald Walsh's conversations with God. And so I that's how it started, and I just kept doing it and doing it, and then I decided to study uh with the in at the Center for Akashic Studies and got my accreditations. And the more that I visited my records, the more that I spent time in the divine realm, the more I expanded and relaxed and felt better and things worked, my life got better. Not that it was bad before, but it would just got better, fuller. Right. So that's how I got here.

Beverley Glazer 18:31

Right. For people who don't know, explain what the Akashic records are. What are they?

Mary Madeiras 18:39

So the Akashic records they have been around since the beginning of time. It is an ethereal, a divine realm. It's a divine, it's a quantum realm. Quantum meaning we can't see and touch it, but it exists. And uh quantum physics now is and science is showing that there is a field that is measurable and it is um, we don't we can't see it with our eyes, but it exists. Some call it the center point, the place, the spot where there's nothing and everything. Um, so we're hearing more about it. The Akashic records are a quantum divine field that contains um every thought, action, and experience of every soul lifetime after lifetime. So it's imprinted in the records, it's a quantum imprint. So each of us as a soul and all of our past lives is held and exists in the Akashic realm. And when we access the Akashic realm using our own name to open up only our records, we then are um shown a mirror image of ourselves from divine itself. So divine imparts to us who we are, so we're meeting up with an aspect of ourselves. So it's not the bearded man in the clouds telling us what to do, it is literally us imprinted. And the idea is that we lose, we forget. We tend to forget why we're here, you know, a lot about ourselves, and we get to remember and rediscover who we are when we listen to our records in part the mirror of us, I'll say. So the Bible has the book of life, that's the Akashic Records. The um to the Tibetan Book of the Living and Dead, or the Tibetan Book of the Dead, that they speak of a realm. Um, the Quran also refers to a realm, maybe they don't call it that, but the idea that there's this space that records everything from life itself from the beginning of time. It's been around forever. And I think we're hearing more about it now because more people are expanding, consciousness is raising itself, we're we're becoming more conscious, and our vibrations are getting, we're raising our vibrations. And the more we raise our vibrations, the more we're going to hear and see things or uh the realms. We're gonna see realms beside beyond third dimension that's happening more. I mean, look how many psychics there are.

Beverley Glazer 21:19

Well, yes, yes, right. How does that help you in your daily life, Mary? How do the records help you?

Mary Madeiras 21:27

Well, the records are great for um, they help me in terms of affirmations, um, clarifications when I'm getting a sense of something um and I'm not sure about it, I'll take the question, which a lot of that's in my book. I'll take the question into my own Akashic records. So if I'm trying to figure something out, or if I'm at a fork in the road and I feel like I don't know what this or that, the records aren't going to tell me what to do, but they're going to, it's weird to say this, but they dialogue with us if you're doing it. By yourself, you're hearing the thoughts, and then you're asking the questions, and you're hearing answers, at least I do, and the answers help us. Um we wind up answering our own questions by what the records ask us or or encourage us to think about, and so we come to our own understanding of ourselves, a more a better understanding of ourselves, which then, if we're more aligned with ourselves, then when we're at a fork, we are going to know which to choose, right? So it's about alignment. Yeah. So that it helps me in that clarification, or when I'm really confused about something, like even in life, in humanity, you know, I'm I'm finding myself very um I'm questioning um where humanity is heading with AI. So things like that, or where is the planet right now? And I bring that, I'll bring it into the record. So I will get the perspective from divine realm itself on what's happening. And it's so profound what comes through. It's just love and light 100% of the time.

Beverley Glazer 23:12

As you talk, you just look so complete. I just have to say that. I just have to say that. Thank you. I appreciate that. Why why do you think that people disconnect from their intuition, which is another realm, our feelings?

Mary Madeiras 23:31

Yeah. Um, part of it, I think, is what's going on around us, you know, programming. We'll call it that for now. But I think I'm gonna I'm gonna go with Mecartoly on this one. I think it is the ego conscious, because when the ego conscious forms itself from unlight, undivine, unknowing, that's how it forms. It doesn't really exist. But when we don't know we're light, when we just don't know it, we haven't experienced that we are love. For we all have various reasons for that. Could be traumas, past lives, whatever, subconscious patterns. But when we don't know we're light, then the actions that we take in our lives will be unlight, unlove. And now the collection of that becomes the collective ego, and the then the ego becomes aware of itself, and then once it has an awareness of itself, it fears its demise. So it just looks for more matches to what it is, which is unlove and unlight. There only is really light, that's what's real. And so I think the disconnection, what causes our disconnection may be how we've grown up, our past lives, things like that. Um, and being not not having an experience of love, not knowing that we're love, not experiencing it from various sources. And as children, when we're growing up, and we we don't we don't experience it, and some of us it's even worse than others in terms of trauma, yeah. Um, then it's tough to find that. And so, how do we get back to does it go away? Oh no, we're always love, we're love before we're traumatized. And so it's it's finding our way back to experiencing, oh, that is who I am. Once we do that, then the ego poofs, it can't out of existence, it can't exist anymore, and then we're happy and happiness and joy. And the sure way to discover, rediscover our light is through joy and happiness, not through pain. We've learned the world teaches no pain, no gain, or has that is not true. I grew up learning that. No, or look at all the people who are in careers, and then you know, and they and they they're unhappy. Maybe they started out liking them, but then they're unhappy, but they have to stick to it because they have to retire, save the money, and then I'll go and have a vacation and enjoy the rest of my life. And the records and divine says, No, dear ones, no. Look for the joy first. Oh, I can get paid money to do something joyful.

Beverley Glazer 26:17

Yes, yes, you can, right? Yes, you can.

Mary Madeiras 26:21

And can it be easy? Yes, it's supposed to be easy, not hard. Yeah, and that's brand new to a lot of people, and that's

Career Loss, Identity Shift, and Listening Within

Mary Madeiras 26:30

the thing that I am always conveying, whether it's to clients or on podcasts like here with you, conversations with you, is that it's you know, where we lie to, well, kind of, but we know where it came from. It comes from an eco place. A company is gonna lie to us about certain things because they want they want to make more money. And so, you know, that's one example. But I mean, even religions tend to do that to hold you down. That can happen. They hold us down with belief systems, and they make these people up on the pulpit, they're the ones that know everything, they're the gurus, and it's like divine says no, and that's not what Christ taught. Christ's consciousness is we are all of us the same, and we are the same as divine, is we are that. That's the new um, I think it's going to become the new earth that we're moving into unity consciousness.

Beverley Glazer 27:26

Right. I think you answered my next question, but let's just simplify it again for women who feel lost and disconnected of what's next. How do they learn to just trust themselves, Mary?

Mary Madeiras 27:41

So great question. Don't think about having to trust yourself, just forget about that. Just look at what brings you joy right now and also what brought you joy even when you were little, because we think, oh, well, I'm grown up now, that was then. No. So we could we could we could rediscover and write them down so that they're looking back at you or speak them. Don't just think about them because they might go away, right? Or be taken over by some other part of you that you know that thinks other things. So if you just do a rampage of that, what really like just where do you what do you lose time over? That's a good question. Where all of a sudden you're doing something, you're engaged in whatever, and five hours have gone by and you were not in pain. It was like, wow, that's important. That's our own being speaking to us saying, pay attention because we're here to engage in this. And and we have to get our minds out of the way because our minds might come in and go, Well, I'm this age, it's too late for me to blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. And of course, it's never too late. That's another old paradigm thought. Never too late. There are people in their hundreds when they're doing things that they love, right? And we're seeing more videos now, especially on YouTube, of men, and especially women who are in their 90s and 100 or 101 and five, and they're talking about why they are 100 years old. What are the ingredients? Why, you know, it's like the blue zones, and you know, it's purpose, it's joy, it's happiness, and it's also uh inter-communication, communicating, being in not being alone.

Beverley Glazer 29:24

Exactly. Thank you, thank you, Mary. Mary

Takeaways, Resources, and What to Do Next

Beverley Glazer 29:28

Mediris is a three-time Emmy Award-winning television director, an author, an advanced Akashic Records practitioner. And after years of directing network television, including General Hospital and Another World, and winning a Director's Guild of America award, Mary followed a deeper calling. Today she helps people have clarity, healing, and inner guidance. And she is the author of the Akashic Way, Living Through the Lens of the Akashic Records, a book designed to help you trust your intuition and navigate with greater awareness and purpose. Here are a few takeaways from this episode. Outer success does not always mean inner alignment. Your intuition often speaks before you're ready to listen, and your titles and awards matter less when your soul is asking for something more. If you've been relating to this episode, here are some things to do right now. Instead of always staying busy, make space for quiet reflection. Stop measuring your worth only by achievement and productivity, and stop ignoring the inner voice that tells you something needs to change. For similar episodes on trusting your intuition, check out episode 162 of Aging with Purpose and Passion. And if you like podcasts for older women, check out Women Over 70. Their compelling stories shatter the myth

Joy as a Path Back to Yourself

Beverley Glazer 31:05

that we become irrelevant as we age. That's womenover70.com. And so, Mary, where can people find you? Please share your links.

Mary Madeiras 31:16

Oh, sure. Um, so my website is theakashakway.com. And um, you can email me at Mary at the akashakway.com. My book is on Amazon and online, Walmart, Target, all those places. Um, and so that's how you can reach me and email me, I will answer you. Um, and I want to just say womenover70.com, I don't know much about that, but I think that's really important.

Beverley Glazer 31:45

So it sure is.

Mary Madeiras 31:46

I I'm very interested to know more about that.

Beverley Glazer 31:50

Terrific. All Mary's links are in the show notes, and they're on my site too. That's reinventimpossible.com. And so, my friends, what's next for you? If you're ready to move from stuck to unstoppable, download my free roadmap, and that's in the show notes. And please add us to your playlist, share it with a friend, and remember, you only have one life, so live it with purpose and passion.

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